Thursday, November 13, 2014

Alcohol or other substances.

Why yes. I have been drinking. Why not?  All the shit I have to deal with, you would drink sometimes too. Hey! Guess what? Sometimes I smoke pot too! 

Did you know that a muscle relaxer has a more serious side effect for me? Seriously. It's crazy. Pharmaceuticals cause me more problems than a strong drink and a few hits of reefer. 

Spend a day in my shoes. Seriously, I will trade you for a day.

I suffer from constant headaches and body pain. On top of that I have constant fatigue. So, I always hurt and I am always way more tired than you could ever think of. 

Granted, I know half of what is causing me all this grief. That helps. I can medicate the cause and not just the symptom. I know that I don't get enough blood (therefore oxygen) to my brain. I take my medicine, I drink my caffeine, I drink my water with salt, I feel better. For now.

I have more appts with other departments withing the university hospital ( I am severely lucky that I get seen at a leading hospital in both EDS and FM).  Those will help me. I can only hope that they are using my info to help others. ( I mean to ask). 

In the meantime, I have issues. There is no cure for my condition. Only treatments for me and my children. It leaves a smoldering guilt behind. What did I pass on to them? If I had known, would I have had kids? 

I can't answer that. The biological need to procreate with my husband was strong. I could smell him all the time. The need to make babies. The need to be with him. I still question that. What possessed me? I have an inkling, but I still feel bad about passing down these stupid ass genes. At least, the University is taking me seriously and referring my children to their specialists. All that stuff that is wrong with me, could be addressed in them, while they are young. They could have a better hope for a future, They could go farther in life. I hold onto that. 

In the meantime, I do what I can to feel. To feel anything other than the depression, fatigue, anger, anxiety, bitchiness that fuels my life. I don't drink or anything regularly. Any med, any drug can fuck me up for a long time. It can take me days to get over something, esp stuff that lowers my blood pressure. Alcohol gives me the least amount of recovery time. I easily replace the water the next day, if I didn't while I was drinking. But a muscle relaxer lasts for 3 days! A lorazepam (Ativan) lasts me 3 days too. Fuck! 

I do what I can to be a human being. I try hard. I keep going to doctors even though I don't want to. I keep hoping for good news even though most of what I hear is "take this med for your symptoms". 

Lately, I have gotten good news and a med that helps. it doesn't take care of all the headaches. I have an appt with the headache clinic. Until then I will work with what I have , and what I have is vodka. So I drank some. It is a momentary distraction in my life that is filed with pain. I'll take it. Today. 

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Natural Essential Oil Treatment for Lice

I like natural remedies. I hate the idea of caustic chemicals unless necessary. This applies to when my kids get lice. I have tried the prescription stuff and it never worked for us. It made my kids heads and eyes burn and they would still have lice. Which was too bad because the prescription stuff was basically free for us.

I prefer Quit Nits from Wild Child. It is homeopathic. I am on the fence about how effective homeopathic treatment really is for most things, but I have used this product many times and it always works the first time. No more lice, no more eggs. I don't even have to comb out the eggs because they are dead, every time.

This is the second time this school year they got lice. They got it from the same girl, again. But that is another problem. In the meantime, I had to treat my kids hair again. I called all over the two biggest towns next to me and couldn't find any store that sold Quit Nits any more. The only place I could buy it would be online. I couldn't wait the two days it would take to get it here. It had already spread from one kid to the second kid. I didn't want it to spread to a third.

I did what I always do. I read, on the Internet. I read all about natural remedies. I found lots of info. The two pages I liked the most were these. They had some no nonsense information about the life cycle of lice, how the spread, and how fast the reproduce.

Not every page I read (or every person I talk to) agrees about whether or not it can be spread by hats, combs, or pillows. I do know that I have never had to wash the bedding and clean the hats. The most I will do is throw the pillow in the dryer on hot and check the brushes for lice. I always remove all the hair from the brush after I use it too though. But that was all with using the Quit Nits. I had no idea if it would work that way with stuff I had made myself. Frankly, I was nervous.

After reading the ingredients in the Quit Nits, some basic info about how the essential oils are supposed to work, and how the olive, jojoba, or whatever oil helps, I had an idea about how i wanted to make some of my own. I wanted it to be the consistency of the Quit Nits stuff but i wasn't going to use homeopathic stuff. I had read about people using mayonnaise and olive oil. So I figured this should work rather well, especially if I followed it up with a complete combing.

My recipe:

50 drops Tea Tree Oil
50 drops cinnamon leaf oil
20 drops lemon grass oil
15 drops lavender oil
10 drops eucalyptus oil
5 drops peppermint
1/8 tsp vanilla (made with Madagascar bourbon)
2 fl oz jojoba oil
2 fl oz olive oil
8 fl oz cocoa butter lotion (or you can use conditioner)

I mixed it thoroughly and let it set for 20 min.

At first, when I mixed it, it smelled strongly of cinnamon but that settled and it started to smell like lemon cookies to me. My husband said it smelled strong but he doesn't like the smell of essential oils to begin with. My ten yr old said she thought it smelled better than the Quit Nits. My 7 yr old, who was being treated said it was smelly. She is the kind of child who won't smell flowers because she thinks they are stinky. I found it to smell pleasant.

I found all these oils listed in the one article. I found the experiments listed to be quite helpful in determining what oils and what amounts to use.

I rubbed this into the scalp and then down the lengths of the hair. This amount that I made was enough to treat 3 people with shoulder length hair. Me, my 7 yr old, and my 5 yr old. I have enough left over that I could have treated another kid with the same amount of hair as my 7 yr old. I didn't have any lice (according to my husband), but I wanted to put it on my head first to make sure it wasn't going to sting or anything. I have really dry scalp right now and I was hoping this might help.

I did this about 2 hours before bed time. I put their hair up in messy buns with some hair ties and put shower caps on them and left them on until they fell asleep. I left the treatment in over night.

The next day we took our hair down. Our hair felt like we had left oily lotion in our hair all night and it still smelled very fragrant. I washed all of our hair with shampoo and conditioner. Even after that I could still smell the oils in our hair. I consider that a good thing because the scent is supposed to keep the lice away.

The true test of how this worked was the nit picking test. I thoroughly combed through their hair. I split it section by section, making sure to inspect every hair follicle. The nit comb was completely useless. It would not pull the nits off the hair. I used my fingernails.

It worked. I pulled several dead adult lice off of my kids heads. They were very dead. I had never been happier to find lice before. My recipe worked. I will never know whether or not it killed the eggs. I just pulled them out and threw them in the trash. They were easier to pull off though.

The biggest part of getting rid of lice is getting them all off the head. You don't have to use stuff to kill them as long as you get them all off the head. I did put my daughter's pillows through the dryer this time and I plan on putting several drops of Tea Tree Oil and Cinnamon Leaf Oil in the regular conditioner just to see if it will keep the lice away.